It is quiet here. Charlie and Adrian are sleeping, and the two little ones are sleeping over at my in-laws. I have been feeling really good for a few hours, maybe I have been on a bit of a high. I have been so busy, there has not been much time to think.
It has just really hit me that tomorrow it truly starts. All the tests. I am so scared for our son. All I can think about is my four year old being in pain. I want to know what is wrong with him, but at the same time I don't. He is so normal right now. The same old Charlie. I am trying to trust that God has a good and perfect reason Charlie has to go through this right now, even if I hate every test and the diagnosis. Tomorrow scares me. I am praying we feel Gods arms around us every minute tomorrow.
My husband and kids sleep through anything and everything. Good for me, since I am such a night-hawk. I have been blasting this song tonight over and over. I know its not "FRC" music. But I need a big song right now. : )
It has just really hit me that tomorrow it truly starts. All the tests. I am so scared for our son. All I can think about is my four year old being in pain. I want to know what is wrong with him, but at the same time I don't. He is so normal right now. The same old Charlie. I am trying to trust that God has a good and perfect reason Charlie has to go through this right now, even if I hate every test and the diagnosis. Tomorrow scares me. I am praying we feel Gods arms around us every minute tomorrow.
My husband and kids sleep through anything and everything. Good for me, since I am such a night-hawk. I have been blasting this song tonight over and over. I know its not "FRC" music. But I need a big song right now. : )
I know I have said it, but thank you again for your e-mails. I love reading through them all at night.
That is a wonderful song, Katie. Thanks for posting. God bless you, honey. May Jesus draw you close and pull you under his wing.
ReplyDeletei love this song too. praying for u
ReplyDeletePraying continually for Charlie and your family since Bethany posted the blog on Facebook. May God give you strength and clear answers as you see the doctors today. May he give wisdom and guidance to the hospital staff!
ReplyDeleteJosh and Kari Puklicz (just one of your many Pennings' cousins)
Praying for you and your family today - I know that it can't be easy. I enjoyed the song - I especially liked the part that says "Where does my help come from? My help comes from the Maker of Heaven and Earth. And I will praise you in this storm!!" Powerful - I hope you can take comfort in these words!!!
ReplyDeletePraying for Charlie and your family today!
ReplyDeletePraying for your family! I love that song- it was our favorite when our boys were born very early!
ReplyDeletehi katie,
ReplyDeletei just heard about your son's condition from my step mom sylvia hamstra~schouls. please know that we are praying for you here, laying your needs before the throne of grace. love the song...one of my favourites too!
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